I
am at a place once again, where I sense I need to go over a wall. This wall is a bit higher than the last
one. I keep searching for stairs or
steps or even a key to unlock a hidden door.
Papa
God, are you leading me over the wall?
Are you holding out a “carrot” so to speak to entice me to follow
you? I know you are near, and yet I don’t
sense your presence. This unsettles me.
“I
am hear, daughter.”
I
feel lost Papa. I want more of YOU: More
of who you are, more of your presence, more of your glory, more, more,
more! I am yours. All of who I am is yours.
I
know there is electricity, frequency and light that is you. And yet, I have to
ask, Who are you God?
I
seek you, but I’m afraid I am not getting anywhere.
Who
am I, Lord?
I know, who I am, more today
than I did yesterday.
I am more aware.
Please heighten my spirit to be more sensitive to You and Your presence. I want
your presence to permeate through me and around me so that others will become
affected by your Spirit. Let me leak
your Holy Spirit. I wish to change the
atmosphere around me. You know, bring
Heaven to Earth.
Papa,
I hear of this Black Cloud, which is You – the fiercest part of You. Is that
true?
“Yes.”
May
I approach it?
“Yes,
yet one must be careful.”
Can
I walk into that fierce Black cloud that is You?
“Are
you ready to meet that part of Me? Are
you willing to die for me?”
Wait,
“die for you”? Physically die? Die to myself, die? What do you mean?
“Are
you willing to give up all of who you are? Are
you willing to surrender your whole being to Me? Are you willing?”
I
don’t know. I want to say that I
am. Can I walk into it? I’m not sure. Am I ready, Lord?
“I
am here, daughter. When you are ready to
come, I am here. Once you come, you will
be changed. There is no going back.”
