My Journey Going Deeper

When I began "my journey off the tracks" from religion, I could not imagine what that would look like.  A person prepares for a journey. You make a list and check it twice just so you don’t forget something.  Especially, when taking a long journey to an unknown place, you what to be prepared, right?  Well, let me just say that preparing for a deeper relationship with the Creator is not your normal journey!

In May of 2017, I wrote in my journal:

“Up until now, I never realized that my spirit has been so far ahead of my soul. My soul is not sure what to make of the “stuff” I am experiencing in the spirit realm. New ideas and far out there off the grid “stuff”. I’ve been “off the grid” for a while but never thought that my dear soul was having such issues.

 Working through my spirit, soul, and body gateways, while mentoring/teaching is also a journey. It is not just a process.  I think that’s one thing I am learning. It’s all a journey. There are processes along the way to help us along.

Transformation is hard. Why? Well, you have to go through ALL the baggage you have carried your whole life and take care of it. This means letting go of:

Bitterness and forgiving. Looking at circumstances or situations where I have said yes to the enemy and no to God. Own it and then allow Papa God to restore. Yes, some of that is what people call “soul issues” but it is because I allowed the soul to be in charge and not my spirit-man.

I’m also learning to “Bless my Spirit” to be who she should be. To remember her identity and purpose for being here. If my spirit-man is working fully then m soul can be at rest. There is no striving, just being. And that makes sense since we are “Human-Beings and not Human-Doings”. If you’d like some help with this, I suggest reading Sylvia Gunter & Arthur Burk’s book “Blessing your Spirit”. You can find it on Amazon.

There is also seeing and acknowledging where I have traded with the enemy.  This has been difficult because of some of the “tendencies” are generational. So, that means working closely with Papa God and working through that. Papa shows me where the trade happened, with whom and what was traded. Now, this can be an eye-opener. Though ugly at times, it is definitely freeing.

Where to start? Well, the easiest and yet most difficult is at the beginning of my life. Yup, all the way back to my conception.

You see, I am adopted.  From what I have gathered without any DNA testing, my birth mother got pregnant out of wedlock either in her late teens or early 20’s in the mid-1950s. That was totally taboo being single and pregnant. So, typically, the person would either adopt out or have an abortion (which was illegal then and not safe at all). I don’t know if she consented or not. But I have the sense she was “in love”. However, the realization of being with child was scary for her. She had to give me up.

This of course, leaves me with questions. Where is she? Who is she?  Who is my birth father? Did he know about me? Are these people still living or are they dead now?

What did my birth parents enjoy doing? Did they sing? Were they artistic in any way? I want to know where I got my artistic abilities. Did God just give them to me, or did I inherit them? Questions… I have had them for a very long time but never had the impetus to find out. I am curious though.  I have always been a curious person.

My Mom and Dad told me at a very early age that “I was chosen” for them. They chose me to be their daughter. They loved me unconditionally, even when I failed to meet their expectations. They treated me with love and discipline so that I would grow up and mature as an adult. I think they did a very good job.

I have a greater sense that God placed me with them specifically. These two individuals had so much love for each other and me and my three sisters who were also adopted.  Together Mom and Dad reflected God’s loving image to me. I miss them very much.

So, my transformation process/journey has also been sweet. It’s going back and seeing those beautiful moments of growth over the years. The remembrance of the little things that actually have made a huge difference in where I am today.”

I encourage anyone reading this, to step before the Father and ask him to begin the transformation process in your life.  Like I said, it is not easy and at times ugly, but the healing that comes from that process makes the journey even sweeter as you step more into the deep with God.

The Symphony

I pondered on a warm summer’s day, why a cool breeze lofting through the leaves in the trees could make such a wonderous sound.  It was like each leaf was a tone. The breeze was playing music in the trees and it was stunningly beautiful.  I closed my eyes and just listened.  The sounds that were around me filled my whole being.  Birds chirping their conversations. Squirrels chattering with other squirrels. Insects buzzing around, but not disturbing me. 

I allowed myself to just soak in the sounds with no filters.  My feet were bare and feeling the ground under me. As I listened to the sounds around me, I also allowed myself to feel the earth beneath my feet.  I allowed my spirit to just melt with the sounds around me.  My feet, they seemed to become one with the earth.

 

Then I heard a frequency. It was soft at first. It played in amongst the others sounds around me.  It was like listening to a symphony.  I marveled in my spirit how creation sings.  The next thing was the vibrations that I was sensing in the earth.  It was all in tune with each other.

I marveled how our Creator orchestrated his symphony.  Each tone of a bird’s song, each chirp and chatter of a squirrel and even the mooing of cows – all intertwined together to make a symphony.

Now, I am inside and it is winter. The cold brings either rain or snow. I had the opportunity to watch the snow fall. It was silent as it fell. Yet, it must have made a sound.  It made the world around me quiet. For some reason, the covering of the snow seems to bring a sense of longing. A longing for wholeness and purity.  Now the rain comes. It washes all the snow away. It reveals the nicks and rubbish on the ground. The dark skies, with clouds heavy with rain, seem to be foreboding. But, as the rain comes down, I hear the sound on the roof. The swishing of cars going by as they run over puddles. Here again is another type of symphony. Rumbling vehicles driving on wet streets have some sort of rhythmic pattern. The rain pounding on the roof has a rhythmic pattern.  The wind blowing through the evergreen trees is not silent. It plays each branch.

Listen to the symphony.  It’s there for each of us every day.  A symphony so grand that we miss it because we don’t take the time to listen. Sometimes, that symphony is soft, so unless we listen we miss it.

I close my eyes and quiet my soul. I then step onto my seat of rest.  I ask my Creator to help me listen with His ears, so that I can hear His symphony.  It is most beautiful.

My Personal Mountains – Mountain of Provision

 I’m sitting in the car waiting for Jim at his workplace. We’re heading to Tumwater to stay with my sister Karen for Thanksgiving.

Because our finances don’t seem to be any better since Jim got his permanent full-time job in July of this year, in fact they seem to have gotten worse, I asked Holy Spirit if I should go to court again or if there was a mountain I needed to clear off.  “A mountain” is what I heard, so by faith I went up in the spirit to what I thought was my Mountain of Finance.

However, before I went to that mountain, I went to the Holy of Holies and took communion. That is a time I take to “see if there is any wicked way in me” and confess it before the Lord.  I want to be clean and full of His righteousness always. I find I can see and hear a whole lot better once I do this. After taking communion, in the spirit, I went and stood before the Ark of the Covenant.  It was difficult to discern, but I saw the Eagle face out of the four faces of God. (The four faces of God: Lion, Ox, Eagle, Man.) I waited to hear or receive a mandate for when I go to the Mountain of Finance. I heard – “Go to the mountain.  All will be revealed.”  So, in the spirit, I went to the mountain.

As I looked around (more perceiving at this point), I sensed it was very dark and sludgy. I have my sword of Truth, which shines light, so I unsheathed it so it would shed light.  I walked around the base of the mountain. Sludge and mud – YUCK! I wished I had put on a pair of rubber boots. Then, walked up a bit on a trail and pretty much ran into an ogre. I asked my Angels, Mikael and Fred, to pin him down and shackle him. After doing that, we discovered two other ogres and they did the same to them; pinned them down and shackled them. 

I asked Holy Spirit what to do now.  I heard, “Court of War. They are trespassing.”.  So, Mikael and Fred along with the three ogres and I went to the Court of War.

Court of War

Once again, in the spirit we were transported to a hallway where there was a huge wood door and two very large angels standing guard.  One asked why I was there. I told him I had three ogres that had trespassed on my mountain and the angel then opened the door and allowed me to enter.

I realize that my angels have taken these three ogres to someplace else. I think probably some sort of holding area.

As I entered the courtroom, I see Jesus standing there waiting for me.  He smiled at me and gestured for me to come by his side.  I looked around the courtroom.  It was wider and not as deep.  I see the Cloud of Witnesses to the left of me and the Judge (God) in the front of the room at the bench. It appeared like a regular courtroom one would see on earth, sort of, except there was a lot of Glory-Light in that room.

I asked Jesus to give me some pointers, because I wasn’t sure what the protocol was in this court.  He asked me what I needed. I told him.  He smiled and said that I was in the right place.

After a few pointers, like acknowledging the Court (God), the Cloud of Witnesses, and Jesus, I approached the bench.  In the Court of War, Jesus isn’t just an advocate, he is our co-counsel on every case, so again I am not alone.

The Father asked me to approach the bench.  I acknowledge Him, Jesus and Holy Spirit. I acknowledged the Cloud of Witnesses that were also in attendance.  I stated what had been happening with the finance situation in our family and what I found on the mountain. 

The Judge (GOD) called the angels to present the ogres before the court.  I did not know that these three ogres represented three negative trading floor kings: Tyre- Money, materialism and all that entails; Athaliah – Kingly seed, “identity- I’m not good enough” and all those lies; and lastly Leviathan – Twisted communication, half-truth, trying to impress people. (I only knew this because Jesus told me.)

The three ogres stood before the Judge (God) in shackles and their mouths duct taped, so they could not speak. They were not happy.  They writhed as they stood before the Judge. Partly because of the Light that came from the Father. Then, Father judged them “Guilty of Trespassing”.  The three ogres were then taken by three Bailiffs and Jesus.  I saw them all go through a door, but did not know where they were taken.

Father then gave me a scroll. I looked at it and it said,

”All that has been taken, stolen or removed by the enemy is to be restored 7 fold, by the enemy to Sue Beckman and her husband, Jim. Any plunder that had been taken: jobs or promotions that were stolen, all money that should have been multiplying and continue to multiply will be restored. The enemy is to keep his hands off.

This will continue:  All that is touched, created, thought of, promotions, unexpected inheritances, jobs will prosper to the fullest.”

I took the scroll and was directed to the Court of Scribes. This looked like the front of a library or something. It had a counter where an Angel Scribe stood.  I handed the scroll to the Scribe. They took it and went away for just a moment.  Then was back with two scrolls. They had made a copy; the original I keep and the copy goes to the Court of Angels.

I then went to the Court of Angels. As I stepped into the court area, they all stopped and waited for me to give them instructions.  I asked for volunteers to begin the clean- up of my mountain. Well, I had quite a few (like hundreds) raise their hands.  I picked 50, gave them the scroll and we all went to my mountain.

Clean-up of the Mountain

Back at the mountain, I asked the angels to find the opening on the inside of the mountain.  Once found, I went in.  Great Scott!  There was a hoard of treasure! More than I could have imagined.  With the angelic help, we sorted and cleaned.  I saw a stairway of sorts, that led up to a ledge. I went up that and found a knob of some sort.  I tried to turn it, but it was rusted and wouldn’t budge. So, Mikael came and helped me turn it. Well, he did most of it, because he is stronger than I am.

I heard a trickle of water. It was coming from up overhead towards my right.  More and more water came until there was a beautiful waterfall.  The fresh sparkling water began to clean the sludge from the floor.  It also was cleaning off the treasure. I noticed a huge grate. It was closed, so asked Fred to open it. He (Fred) had a couple of other angels help him clean it out once he opened it. Then, the water went through the grate.  Once the water was flowing, everything inside became clean and smelled nice. In fact, the water was bringing gems and scrolls and other things into the mountain.

I walked back outside and the mud and sludge was cleaned away. There are fish and fresh sweet water running around the base of the mountain now. It looks like a moat, but with fresh clear and very clean water.  Also, the water sparkled and shimmered, which makes the mountain kind of glow.

There is a path that goes up the mountain. As I walk up it, I notice a scrawny tree.  I asked an angel to get some of the fresh water and water it.  When he did that, it began to grow and the fruit of it was like “money”. A money tree? Its blossoms were gold and silver coins. Large ones.  The tree was green; a deep lush green.  Around the tree are flowers, but the flowers are gemstones; precious and semi-precious stones. 

When I reached the top of the mountain, there was a small garden around the throne that was there. I sat upon that throne and spoke from the scroll that was given to me from the Court of War.  Once I spoke those declarations, I posted two angels on the mountain to guard and protect it. I sat there for quite a while and praised God for His provision. I realized this is not the mountain of finance, but the Mountain of Provision.  All provision come from God. It does not from man. That stopped me in my tracks.  Now I look at our family finances as God’s provision now. What game changer in new thinking.  Thank you Father

My Personal Mountains – Mountain of Health and Healing

My last blog post was when Jesus took me to my personal mountain in Heaven.

http://journeyoffthetracks.blogspot.com/2016/06/jesus-takes-me-to-my-mountain.html

That experience was back in 2015 when I first discovered things about mountains, heavenly government and the like.

Since that time, I have gone to four out of seven of my personal mountains.  This has been a discovery time for me. So, I’m going to share those experiences, since they are a part of my Journey.

Mountain of Health and Healing

I had fallen when I had tried to get up to go to the bathroom. It was early in the morning, and Jim was still at home; he had not left for work as yet.

All I recall was the need to get up and go to the bathroom.  I remember swinging my feet over the side of the bed to get up, but then… nothing.  I had a sensation of my feet not touching the floor.  The next thing I recall was Jim hovering over me, quite anxious and helping me to the bed. Me arguing that I needed to go to the bathroom.  He helped me.  I was light headed. Then he helped me back to bed. Told me to call him later that morning. He wanted to know how I was doing.

You see, Jim was in the kitchen and heard a loud “KUR-THUMP” (as I hit the floor) and the noise of the closet door rattling. Finding me on the floor in a heap was not what he expected.

As I laid in bed, I did a physical assessment: my neck was sore, like I had whiplash. My forehead had a bump on it. My knees had rug burns on them.  I was also a bit dizzy and my sinuses hurt.

WHY?  After Monday night Council meeting I contracted another sinus infection.  It was the next day after our Bench meeting that I fainted and fell and hurt myself. I sensed this was attack from the enemy. I was vulnerable somehow.

I asked Papa God what I should do.  The answer was go to your mountain of Health and Healing and clean it off. I hadn’t realized that I had a mountain for Health and Healing.

Huh, I hadn’t thought of that, but agreed and asked Holy Spirit to help me.  You see, on our government benches, we had been cleaning off our mountains of influence, so I had been getting a lot of practice doing that with our bench of 3.  But, this was my mountain. I needed to do this without help from the others from my bench.  Oh, but I did have help. LOTS of heavenly help.

Going up to the Mountain

I sat in my chair, pen and journal in hand, closed my eyes and went up in the spirit.

I went to my mountain of Health and Healing. There I was, a mountain before me that looked black and charred.  As I looked around, I saw a pit of some sort. I asked my angels to go down and take

a peek to see what was there.  They came back and said: “Nothing but muck and poo!”  Eeew!

So, I walked around to see if there was an entrance.  I found a cave. I pulled out my sword of Truth and the Word, that was given to me on a former journey.  It lit up the area enough so I could see clearly.  As I went forward into the cave, I immediately saw a huge very fat dragon lying on a mound of what looked to be flowers, herbs, and some gems. It was sleeping. I took my sword, along with my angels, and we lopped the head off that dragon.  The angels turned the dragon on its side and I opened the belly with my sword. Out poured lots of gems, vials of essences, and a key.

The key, I thought would go on my key ring, but no; I was to eat it. It did have a flavor, kind of like cinnamon and orange.  I picked up a gem to look at. It was like an essential oil or something like that. All I know is that the gems smelled lovely.  I rubbed some on myself. Refreshing! I placed some of the gems into a satchel I had. There were different colored gems: yellow, green, purple, orange, blue, gold and silver. They all had different fragrances and properties about them.

I asked the angels to get rid of the carcass of the dragon.  As they removed it, water began to flow inside the mountain.  It trickled along the walls, then flowed more freely. As it flowed, it began washing the walls of the mountain inside.  Then, I found a bucket and two wash mops.  I asked the angels to wash out the walls – scrubbing them.  It was great!  (I could feel that happening- physically.) So much lighter and clean. The water washed away all remnants of the dragon and cleaned the hoard it had. The flowers and the herbs began to grow.

I went outside to see what was happening. My eyes were amazed. There was so much green and color. Flowers and herbs were growing all around the mountain. A clear path now appeared that went up around the mountain. The path was sparkling – shimmering. There were gems all along each side of the path. Also, the mountain itself, seemed to be shimmering and vibrating.

I have a SPA

Before I went up the trail, I wanted to see what happened to the “muck and poo pit”. Astonished, I saw that it was clean and clear! No more muck and poo!  Yay!  In fact, that clean and clear pit was bubbling-almost like a hot tub.  I wanted to try it and see what a gem would do in it.  I pulled out one of the gems and plopped it into the bubbling pool. I went in.  It was like climbing into a spa tub with minerals and essential oils.  Dang!  Felt good.  I sensed every single part of my physical body beginning to almost melt in the relaxation I felt. I could smell the fragrances. I could have stayed there ALL day.  I also noticed that there was a bench and some towels, along with something cool to drink. Wow.  I have a spa on my mountain.  Cool.

I got out, dried off and had a wonderful drink of water. That refreshed me. I had the sense that it was Living Water. I felt stronger and more whole.

Going Up the Path

Time to go up the path to the top. As I walked up that shining – shimmering path, I noticed even more beauty. Besides just green, I smelled Rose of Sharon. There were bushes of it all over the mountain, so the fragrance flowed all over.  Then, there was Jasmine. Oh, that fragrance is wonderful. I found different kinds of mint and a Myrtle tree in bloom.  I could hear music of some sort. Maybe just frequency, but it was beautiful and soothing. I could feel the vibrations of the music throughout the mountain.

There were flowers growing. These “flowers” looked more like three stranded DNA – growing and flourishing. Different colors weaving in the strands.  I picked one and put it on my forehead. (I have no reason why I did that, I just did it.) I felt it go inside of my head. It was a very strange, but warm feeling.

Once at the top, there was a beautiful bench-throne. I sat on it and felt wholeness flow over me. The bench-throne was purple, blue and silver.  I asked for an angel to come and steward this mountain.

Then I decreed from my bench-throne:

This is God’s wholeness; healing, full health.  There is no sickness or death. Only wholeness.  Peace: God’s Shalom reigns here.

No Stress.  No hurting. No illness. Only the Father’s Love.

Let the healing water flow and the flowers and herbs grow. Let the vibration of healing permeate this mountain.

I just sat there for a time, soaking in and drinking from those healing waters.

Back in the Natural

As I came back into the world of sitting in my chair, I noticed a difference in how my body felt. I noticed for instance, that my sinus infection was pretty much not there.  I also noticed that my head and body didn’t ache like it had.  I went to the mirror and where I had a huge bang on my forehead, there was now just a red spot where I had connected with the closet door and no bump.

I had tears running down my face. I am learning so much and it is real.

KINGDOM GOVERNMENT

I pondered what Jesus told me: “Your next season of learning has begun.”

You see, back in January/February 2015, I had another friend die of cancer. (That made about 5 in two years!) I had had enough. I wanted answers.  I was pretty upset. In fact, I was so upset that I was really angry at God about it.  I had prayed and prayed. Apparently my prayers don’t make a difference, or so I thought.  I railed at God, just like King David.  In that railing , I was also reminding God of how much He does loves His creation.  I kept asking God,” What is the key to all this?  There has to be a key.  What am I missing?  Please tell me!”  Well, you see, He had that key for me: Kingdom Government.

What does that mean? Well, I was soon to find out.  Two days after Jesus took me to my Mountain in heaven, I was at a conference. It was called “Deed Calls to Deep” and by the end of the week my poor head was so full.  It was at this conference I began to understand in a deeper way what Jesus had told me about my seven mountains of influence.

Let’s just say that whatever grid I had before was totally blown away by the end of the week.  As scripture was opened up to me, my spirit was starting to jump.  No butterflies whatsoever, but it was literally jumping for joy!  Everything that the conference speaker said, I listened with intensity and asking Holy Spirit for discernment - everything. 

He spoke about Kingdom Government.  How as sons and daughters of God, we are called to rule now, not when we are dead.  We all have mountains and realms of authority that we are supposed to be governing over now, not later.  He gave us so much background, not only scripture but metaphysics and other science stuff (which I sort of tuned out of, but am sure glad I got the recording).  Basically, the speaker told me the same thing that Jesus told me, but went into it in more depth.  I’m thinking that Jesus knew that this would be so overwhelming to me, so he told me ahead of time the “gist” and left the rest to be filled in.

Kingdom government is so different than what the “Church” today has in place.  In fact, what the church has in place is upside down from what it should be. I don’t wish to go into it in depth here, but suffice it to say, currently the church has it like a pyramid - top down. What Kingdom government should be like is a pyramid upside down.  We should be a reflection of Heaven, but we aren’t.

As we each step into our identity and destiny that God has for each of us, we can then begin to rule as sons and daughters of God.  That rule is taken seriously in Heaven.  Why do you think that Jesus came to earth; to just die on the cross and save us from our sins?  That is only part of it.  Remember, Jesus brought heaven to earth.

 “As you go, preach this message:

 “The kingdom of heaven is at hand.” (NIV) Matt 10:7

“Your prayers, rather, should be simple, like this:

    Our Father in heaven,
        let Your name remain holy.
     Bring about Your kingdom.
    Manifest Your will here on earth,
        as it is manifest in heaven.” (The Voice)  Matt 6:9-10

Anyway, I listened and prayed.  I realized with a bit more clarity that Jesus was the living, breathing example of HOW to live here on earth.  He showed us. The New Testament is full of his examples and the examples of the disciples.  It seems that Jesus’ mandate from the Father was: to go and live as a human being. Show them how to live and what to live for. Be their example, so that they in turn can learn to do what I show you, so that the disciples in turn can continue to learn and show how my Kingdom is to be set on earth. 

Wow.  We’ve not done a good job at our part, up to this point.  It is time to change.

I also learned that when the church does function as an upside down pyramid, Heaven invades earth more easily.

Well, on the last day we had an activation exercise.  In the spirit, I received from Jesus a beautiful carved wood box with some jewels around it.  I opened it up. There was a large key ring and on it was my first key.  

Jesus Takes Me to My Mountain

A year ago, I was talking with Papa God. As I talk with Him, I journal. This particular time with Him has changed my life. It was on April 30, 2015, just a few days before I was going to a week- long intensive conference on “The Government of Heaven, Deep Calling to Deep” with Mike Parsons. I didn't know anything about mountains and let alone Heavenly Government.

                                         ++++++++++++++++++++

Me:     What’s on your heart today, Papa?

God:    I would like you to take a walk with Jesus today. He wants to spend time with you.  (He

smiles)

Me:     Alright. (I turn and see Jesus) Hi! So, what do you want to do today?

Jesus:  (Big smile on his face.)  Yes, I want to play. Let’s go!  Take my hand and I’ll lead you.

            (He offers me his hand and I take take it.)

            I want to show you my playground.

Me:     You have a special playground?

Jesus:  (with an impish smile on his face)  Yes, I do. 

(Jesus takes me to an open space – real space - the great expanse. I am in the Universe. And it was blowing my mind!)

Me:     Whoa – this is amazing!  I feel so, so light. Wow!  There are so many stars!

(I am standing, if you want to call it that, on non-air, in space. I am not in a space suit and

 just looking at the stars.  My first thought was, “ I'm still breathing and this is off my grid.”)

Jesus:  Yes there are!  (He waves his arms to show me them.) I helped make those stars! I’m

glad you like them.  Look to your right.

Me:     What is that?  It’s beautiful. So many colors. 

Jesus:  Come let’s go to it.  (He takes my hand again, and we are in the most beautiful place…)

Me       Jesus, what is this?  The colors and the sounds are beautiful!  It’s like its singing. Wow.

            

             (The colors were amazing.  It was like being outside the Hubble telescope and looking 

             at this beautiful pattern of color.  The thing of it was, I heard sound. The sound was coming

             from the light patterns that were swirling around us. It was a symphony of sound. And once

             again my mind says, "Totally off my grid".)

Jesus:  It’s a Nebula. You’ve seen this before.

Me:     I have?  When?  I don’t remember being here before.

Jesus:  Well, you weren’t “here” before, but you saw it in Oregon, at the Observatory

in Sunriver  through a large telescope.  You said,  ”This is so beautiful. I wonder what it

looks like up close and personal?”  So, I thought it would be fun to show you.

Me:     (My jaw dropped.  I’m thinking “This is totally off my grid.”)  Okay…

Jesus:  Let’s go to another place. 

            (You would think by this time, I would be use to the "off my grid" things. Nope.)

Me:     Sure. (He takes my hand again. We are on a large mountain.)

Jesus:  We are at a special spot. What do you see?

Me:     (I’m looking around.  360◦ turn.)  What is this?  Where is this?  It’s such a beautiful

place. The colors of the grass and flowers, they are not what I would find on earth.

Amazing!  (Turning to Jesus) Why is this place special?

Jesus:  (Smiles looking directly into my eyes)  This is yours.

Me:     (I look away from His gaze and see what he is showing me and then quickly look back.

              Puzzling over what He just said.)   WHAT!?  This is mine?  How is this mine?

Jesus:  This is your area of influence, your realm, so to speak that you rule from in Heaven. 

(My mouth is open and letting flies in, if there were flies to let in.)

You are a co-heir with me, so this is part of your inheritance.

Me:     Wait. What?  My inheritance? What do you mean, “my inheritance”?

Jesus:  (He laughs)  Yes, I get that reaction a lot from folks.  (smiles and begins to explain) 

This is your mountain, from which you rule as a daughter of the King. What you see

is your kingdom where you rule.  Where you have authority.

And over here (he walks over to this sort of stone mound that had two steps ) is your

throne.

(There a chair was perched upon a mound of carved rock – a most beautiful chair.  It was gold and silver that was intricately woven, very much like filigree. There was flora and fauna woven into that chair. Expertly woven by a Master.  On top of the chair, where it curved was a blue orb like thing. The cushions to sit upon and the back were made of velvet and the most beautiful blue I’ve ever seen. The blue in those cushions changed to different hues of blue-a thousand colors of blue swirled.)

Me:     That’s (I paused and swallowed)  my throne?

(My mind was racing.  I have a throne in heaven. I’m seeing a throne. Jesus says that this is my throne.  I’m in heaven! AND ... I'm not dead.  This is so off my grid….)

Jesus:  Yes.  Now, go and sit.

(I walked carefully up the two steps and turned facing Jesus. I hesitated for just a moment looking at Jesus. The warmth in His eyes and love overwhelmed me. He gave an encouraging nod and I sat upon the throne. What happen when I sat, I was not expecting.)

Me:     Oh my goodness.  Wow.  (I look at Jesus.)  I feel – at peace here. It fits me and I’m  

            home.  Oh so comfortable.

Jesus:  (smiling)  Did you notice the change in your clothing?

Me:     (puzzled)  My clothes? 

(I had been wearing my jeans, tee shirt and tennis shoes, I thought.

I look down. What I saw totally blew my mind. I gasped. I locked eyes with Jesus.)

I’m wearing the dress: That beautiful dress that was in my dream and a crown!

(The dress was made of a material that was flowing. It was empire style and the

dress/skirt  part were the colors of 1000 hues of blues!  The colors flowed and changed

constantly. The bodice was made of silver thread - pure silver thread woven intricately with cap sleeves. There was a train of some sort. It had the blue hues, but also woven in was gold and silver threads. The silver and gold were also woven in a brocade along the edges of the train.  Breathtaking.  The crown was unlike anything I have ever seen. It wasn’t gaudy.  It was like my throne; intricately woven filigree of gold and silver, of flora and fauna with gemstones of which some I recognized and some I did not.  There were 12 of them. The crown shimmered.)

Jesus:  This is who you are here in Heaven.  You are a true ruler. You have authority. You are a

 daughter of the High King. I want you to begin now seeing yourself this way. As a ruler,

 any declarations or decrees that are made from your throne is always in Love and from

 Father’s heart.  Here is where you come to your seat of rest. The authority that you have

 is growing in you.  The more you grow in your intimacy with Father, the more authority

 you are given.  You will find that your prayer life will be changing.

Me:     So, when I pray or Intercede, I am standing or sitting here on my throne, in this outfit,

with full authority.  Do you stand with me when I’m here?

Jesus:  Yes to your first question. You are a co-heir. We partner together for the good of the

            Kingdom. That means we do what the Father says. It is like when I was on earth. What I

            did, I did only because I saw my Father do it first. So it is for you as well.

            As for your second question, I am with you always.  You also have the Angelic Orders

that will help you as well.  You partner with them.  They are ready to serve and are

chewing at the bit to get work done.  (He smiles).

Remember the prayer I taught the first disciples?   “Our Father who is in Heaven, holy is

your name. Your Kingdom come, Your will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven”? That

means what is done here will eventually manifest on earth.  The Kingdom – it is now on

earth. Father’s will is to be carried out by the co-heirs on earth.  That is you.

Me:     Funny, I know this, but when you say it that way, it makes me stop and ponder. How I

pray and what I pray has a more real impact or outcome.  That’s a power.  However, I

need to be careful how that power is wielded.  Right?

Jesus:  Yes.  When you speak, Heaven listens.  You have been given much. Now is the time to

learn more so that you will be even more equipped to rule from your throne.  Just

remember:  I am always with you.  Holy Spirit is always around to give you counsel and

wisdom. He can also guide you. Be reverent in all you do for the Kingdom. I am not

being stodgy, but have a clear understanding and a true “Fear of the Lord”.  This is not a game.  This is Real Life.

Do you see the seven mountains in the distance?  Those are your mountains of influence. Those are areas in your life that you have authority over. If you notice, there are some of the enemy on those mountains.  They will need to be cleaned off, so that order will come.

Me:     Cleaned off?  I have to get rid of those bad nasties by myself?  I’m not sure I can do that.

Jesus:  (He chuckles and smiles) You have the help of Heaven at your beck and call, pretty much. The angels will help you. Be wise and ask Holy Spirit. He will give you guidance.  You will learn much on this journey.  You won’t be able to conquer this in a day.

(He winks)  Be patient with yourself.  This is all new to you. 

This just means you will be here now more often than not. That is a good thing.  We’ve been waiting.  Your next season of learning has begun.

My Transformation Begins

I was listening to a talk about Jesus' love.  How much He loves us and desires us.

As I listened, I closed my eyes because I didn't wish to be distracted. I felt the need to place my hand over my own heart. As I did, my hand became burning hot - not just warm. I could feel the burn, but it was good.  It hurt a bit, but it wasn't destructive.

The more the speaker spoke about how much God really loves us, how much He wants to spend time with us - my heart wanted to BURST. Tears began to well up in my eyes and then flowing down my face. I didn't care. All I wanted was to come closer to Jesus.

This is on a completely different level of relationship than in the past. It is more - I don't know - more engaging, more real.  My heart was burning; like fire - it was hot.

Yet, my whole being was at peace. I told Jesus that I give him my whole heart. I wanted to be "in" Him totally. I told him to take it. Just give me more of yourself.

I then saw in my mind, the eyes of Jesus. With tears streaming down my face, I saw Jesus' eyes looking at me with pure Love. Wow, I am undone! In those eyes were: Gentleness, Love, Desire.  I wanted to gaze into those eyes forever.

I can't really explain it:  A peace that is fully Shalom. Love as I've never really experienced before. My whole being was intertwined with Jesus as He took my heart and held it. Gently He held my heart and as He did, He poured Himself into it.

Mystical ecstacy.

 I had lost myself in Him. I knew in that moment - my transformation had begun. I can never ever turn back. 

Intercessory Prayer

Intercessory prayer has at times gotten a bad reputation. I am an intercessor and my journey in prayer over the years has been, let's say somewhat mundane. I went on a personal search for MORE of God. I wanted to connect with Him in a really initmate way, but had no idea how that worked or even what it looks like.

Back in April 24, 2014 I discovered what some would call "Papa God's heart". Here is an excerpt from that day's journal.

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This morning I was listening to a guy on YouTube, Robert Henderson. He was talking about "The Courts of Heaven".  He was talking about how intercessory prayer is actually taking something to Heaven's court.  I have also been reading more on intercessory prayer; different types of prayer for different things.

From the deepest place of my being, I began interceding on behalf of my church.  I began standing in on the church body's behalf and as I did, began repenting for being cynical and having hardened hearts. I asked forgiveness for losing the passion and fire of the relationship with God. I repented of pride and selfishness. I repented of putting our own desires before God's heart desire.  From the depths of my being I cried- weaping for our church.

You see we had become a "Nazereth". Our hearts had become hardened where God couldn't move corporately; in some individuals they were still open, but no more.

Then, I began declaring that we would seek God with a passion. I declared we would once  again have that fire in our hearts for God's heart; not seeing our own, but His. I declared we would have a new found Joy in Him; where our passion lies in a direct line with God's.  I declare that our church would begin to walk in the destiny that God showed me in a vision a year and a half earlier:  A Lighthouse to the City of Seattle. The power which comes diectly from God to the church, then flows out of each of us to the four corners.

I then began praying for the City of Seattle. My stomach hurt because of God's great sadness and hurt. I felt His sadness and great love for the city.  He wants to heal this city. I began repenting for the sins of the forefathers here in government. The people's prejudices and slavery. My heart literally hurt, because God's heart hurt. I asked God to forgive them because they didn't know what they were doing.

At this point, I began to place Gates of Protection around the city, especially for May 1st. I declared that Seattle would walk in the destiny God has called this city to. I asked Holy Spirit to hover over and around our city leaders and council. I asked protection for our police and fire departments. I repented for the lies and deception from the police leaders. I asked for clarity of truth, that they would not listen to deception and lies.

I also prayed for our nation and it's leaders. I repented on their behalf for turning away from God and listening to the evil one. I asked that we would hear God's truth far above all the lies and follow the voice of His truth.

I haven't wept like that since I went to Bethel. Then, I was released and my heart and stomach didn't hurt anymore. I actually felt lighter!

Amazing things I'm learning for the Kingom. I want to go deeper and God is taking me deeper.

Praise God from whom all blessings flow,
Praise Him all creatures here below.
Praise Him above, ye Heavenly Host.
Praise Father, Son and Holy Ghost.

AMEN

The Lighthouse

This journal entry was about 4 years ago.....

I was driving and headed to a play rehearsal that I was directing. From the street, I can see the steeple of my church.  As I glanced at it, the steeple turned into a lighthouse.

At first, I wasn't sure I was seeing correctly.  I  had the realization that this was an open vision. I've never had any "visions" that I could recall.   I was still driving and seeing this lighthouse where the church was and decided not to freak out. You see, this was REALLY NEW to me. And I was still driving the car!

I asked Father, "So, what does that mean?"

He said,"It is my lighthouse to the city."

"Okay. What does that mean?"

He said,"See the light that is streaming out of the four windows?"

"Yes."

He said,"See the light streaming down into the lighthouse? Then, the light goes directly out."

"Yes."

He said,"That is my power that flows through to the church and then the church is to use that power to flow out to the city.  The church cannot do this on its own. It must come from Me. Tell them this."

Then....the vision ended.  Wow.

My thought was, "What just happened? Did I really just have a vision and talked with God?"

So I went on to my play rehearsal with that vision in the back of my mind. And I didn't crash my car. There must have been an angel driving. I couldn't see anything except the vision.

TODAY

I am now seeing that vision come to fruition. Its kind of fun to watch the Lord move.  But, you know what?  I had to speak this out to a couple of folk at church. A friend  who was on the elder board and to the pastor.  I had to, because I was told to.  I have to admit, it took me a couple of weeks to get the nerve.  What if they thought I was nuts?  This church really didn't teach ANY of this for today. UNTIL now....

Well, I'm glad I was obedient, albeit a little slow and hesitant, but in the end obedient.

So, I just thought I'd share that with you all.  Because, God told me to!

The Black Cloud

I am at a place once again, where I sense I need to go over a wall.  This wall is a bit higher than the last one.  I keep searching for stairs or steps or even a key to unlock a hidden door.

Papa God, are you leading me over the wall?  Are you holding out a “carrot” so to speak to entice me to follow you?  I know you are near, and yet I don’t sense your presence.  This unsettles me.

“I am hear, daughter.”

I feel lost Papa. I want more of YOU:  More of who you are, more of your presence, more of your glory, more, more, more!  I am yours.  All of who I am is yours.

I know there is electricity, frequency and light that is you. And yet, I have to ask, Who are you God? 

I seek you, but I’m afraid I am not getting anywhere. 

Who am I, Lord? 

I know, who I am, more today than I did yesterday.

I am more aware. Please heighten my spirit to be more sensitive to You and Your presence. I want your presence to permeate through me and around me so that others will become affected by your Spirit.  Let me leak your Holy Spirit.  I wish to change the atmosphere around me.  You know, bring Heaven to Earth.

Papa, I hear of this Black Cloud, which is You – the fiercest part of You. Is that true?

“Yes.”

May I approach it?

“Yes, yet one must be careful.”

Can I walk into that fierce Black cloud that is You?

“Are you ready to meet that part of Me?  Are you willing to die for me?”

Wait, “die for you”?   Physically die?  Die to myself, die?  What do you mean?

“Are you willing to give up all of  who you are?  Are you willing to surrender your whole being to Me?  Are you willing?”

I don’t know.  I want to say that I am.   Can I walk into it?  I’m not sure. Am I ready, Lord?

“I am here, daughter.  When you are ready to come, I am here.  Once you come, you will be changed. There is no going back.”

Bringing Heaven to Earth - some musings

Did you know that when we praise God and worship Him we are changing the spiritual atmosphere around us?

Did you know that when we speak out something, make a declaration we are changing the spiritual atmosphere around us?

Did you know that when we curse something, I’m not talking about “ culturally bad words”, but words that speak negative toward a person, a city or a government that we add to the enemy’s arsenal?

Did you know that when we speak or declare healing and hope towards a person, a city or a government we are changing that spiritual atmosphere?

Did you know that when we pray, we don’t have to “beg” God for anything?

Did you know that we, as the sons and daughters of God, may sit on our thrones in Heaven and declare the Father’s heart?

Did you know that as we sit in REST on our thrones in Heaven, we can make a difference here on earth?

What is bringing Heaven to Earth?

It is not trying to politically oust a political party because you don’t agree with it.

It is not just sitting around and talking and complaining that “things aren’t going

 well” or “why is this or that happening”; I am helpless; I don’t have a voice.

It is not listening to the fear mongers on the TV news and then feeling helpless.

It is not talking about “Oh woe is me!”

It is not just sitting in a pew every Sunday getting fat on words, with no practical

spiritual exercise.

It is:

Learning to Love as Jesus loved others in the world.  Not just people like myself.

Being aware of who is around you and needs a smile,some food, an encouraging word or a hug.

Being willing to listen to God and not just talk so you can’t listen to what He

has to say.

Being in prayer and listening to the Father's heart, then going and doing what God said.

Standing in who you are IN Christ.

Knowing your Identity and Destiny in Christ.

Working through Heaven’s Government, rather than man’s. (It's much more economical and practical.)

This is bringing Heaven to earth.